March 17, 2016

My Routines: Skincare



Dear friends, I had the idea of writing to you about my skin care routine, but I kept wanting to sneak other topics in here. The idea of writing only about skin care seems so simple and concrete to me, and simple and concrete is not really the way I think. But routine is one of the few doorways I have found into focusing on the present, and into experiencing more through my body rather than only through my mind. I want to keep this blog simple, to keep up a conversation with anyone who might read me, and to continue exploring how simple, concrete acts can lead to dialogue and personal insight, by showing the type of person you are in doing them. The best way to become is to simply be!

In these modern times, when diverse experiences from all different walks of life are offered up in so many fragments and artifacts on the internet, a person like me could spend a whole day adrift. And, believe me, I have! I have spent days on my couch just taking in abstract ideas of others' lives, and doing just the bare minimum to eat and clean, and basically care for myself. So I am thankful for routine. I am thankful to have the energy to gather myself, most days, into enough of a concrete person to do routines to care for myself and my surroundings. Again, believe me, I didn't always have that. I am slowly learning to love myself a little more, to make more time for myself and for the life I want to lead. This blog is one of the ways I am putting my energy into myself a little bit more.




I am thinking I will write about more of my routines here. Each routine gives you a doorway into my personality, my mind, and how I approach things - like how I budget my money, how I decide what my skin needs, how I research, my role models, and so many other undercurrents. I might write about my bathtime routine next, or my shopping routine. But without further ado, here is one of the routines I practice: my skincare routine. All that is written here are my thoughts and opinions. I am not an expert by any means!

March 7, 2016

An Open Room



Hi blog, it's been a while! Since I last wrote, Max and I moved out together and both started new jobs. We have been slowly getting the ropes of building a life together. He has mainly been the person to cook, while I have mainly been the person to plan and occasionally clean. Our life isn't beautiful by any means. It has had its dark days full of doubt and stress, and wide open expansive, joyous days full of love and hope. One thing for sure is that it is becoming more and more our own. A new feeling of peace has introduced itself to me amidst this bumpy ride. I have never before experienced the feeling of being so close to someone, loving them as much as I feel loved, trusting them so that the most intimate, vulnerable center point of me feels enclosed by the warmth of our bond -- and at the same time, sensing an openness and expansiveness in that bond, because I know that it is not all-consuming... like the quote, I know that we are not lovers lost in each others' eyes, but lovers gazing in the same direction, at the world around us. There is an openness and closeness in this relationship, the relationship most important to me at this point in my life. I am grateful that Max and I found each other, to be able to experience this at such a young age. Who's to say what will come, but I am grateful for everything thus far, at least.



But I don't mean to write here to keep singing praises for my relationship. I just don't want to overwhelm you with too many updates about my life, now that I'm back! Rather, I wanted to give you a warm hello, giving you a casual recap as I lean on the doorway of this room I haven't entered for quite some time. I am excited to start writing here again, and a lot more regularly, too. Thanks for taking the time to read me again, friend. I'll see you soon!